Born at Home

The decision to have a home birth was not an easy one.  Honestly it terrified me, but early on in my pregnancy I knew it was an option I needed to pursue.  

The midwife I selected, Beth Barbeau, was incredible in her ability to not only mentor me through the processing of my fears but also in preparing me physically very early on for a safe delivery.  She often reminded me the labor of giving birth starts months before labor actually sets in, and is not through until several weeks after delivery.  I was committed to take her recommendations very seriously.  

But despite my careful diet, daily exercise and rest, my body presented some concerns with blood pressure and glucose levels as I headed into the third trimester.  Beth suggested some natural remedies to stabilize the problem but gently stated that if they did not stay consistently within normal range we may need to consider a hospital birth.

This discouraged me but allowed the opportunity to consider this decision to give birth at home with more earnest prayer and deep meditation.  And the answer that was whispered to me was very clear, it was consistently the same.......

Where you put your trust there you will find your peace.

So this birth journey became a great lesson in trust.

Trust in the natural processes of my body, the innate wisdom within me and ability to give birth naturally.  Trust in angels, those physically present supporting me, my husband, my midwives, my friend Krissy, and my sister Mary........... and also the unseen angels that I cannot doubt were present.

Trust in the whisperings of a holy spirit that I knew would have prompted me in peace and not fear had there been need to change course anywhere along the way.

And mostly trust in a Heavenly Father who has granted me this experience to learn and grow, knowing that it is only when walking into the unknown and exercising our faith and trust that we are able to draw out the very divinity we have within ourselves.

This message again, where you put your trust there you will find your peace, carried me through the loneliness I felt from lack of support from family and friends, it comforted me as I waited patiently for my husband to come to peace with my decision to give birth at home, and remained with me until Charles was safely in my arms.

I am now taking this lesson beyond the birth experience, allowing it to enable more courage and confidence in all directions of life.