Long break and breath from blogging

I'm back from a long break from blogging.  Almost a year and honestly I do not have much of an excuse besides the ease of using instagram has gotten me lazy with using very few words for our record keeping.

There were actually several posts that I had begun composing throughout last year but did not see them through. In the past I had one faithful follower who I knew would always be waiting for an update and I wrote for her knowing it would in some way lift her spirits while she was ill.  She passed away the end of July 2014 and it has since been difficult for me to publish in this space.

Now I will simply write for the joy of record keeping.  Not sure who will tag along but I'm not in the business of filtering, flattering, marketing or even entertaining.  There is no agenda - this is an every day (actually maybe just once a week) blog with a simple goal of honest record keeping.  I may not even have time for edits and spell check.  

So on with the record! 

This was a big week with James back at the local high school.  He started last January and to be honest the transition was hardest on me.  I really wished my idealistic view of homeschool would see us through to where higher education met.  But it became clear that he was in need of change and after prayerful consideration he was off to school.  I am grateful for the clear confirmation that that is where he needed to be because I have repeatedly been shocked at the peer situations that have shown up for him.  I am pleased to report that through it all he continues to grow both taller and more confident within himself.  My favorite time of the day is when he is home and we sit down with a snack and I say, "tell me everything".  Sometimes he does and sometimes he turns it back on me and patiently listens to all the details from my day with little ones.  Hard to believe there are only a couple more years with him in our home.  

William and Peter were also in need of an education change so we outsourced their schooling to Williamsburg online academy  .  After a summer filled with recreation and lazy days this is just the right amount of structure they needed.  It is challenging both of them to expand their organizational skills and academic focus.  I especially appreciate that a portion of their work is project based and they are able to involve the younger ones in what they are learning.  They are getting very strong with their daily farm chores.  I watched in wonder out a 7:00 am window, Peter hauling a 50 lb bag of grain to the pigs and William toss a bail of hay over the fence to the cattle.      

Maryanna and Clara are still in the love of learning stage - I'm not requiring much of them beyond basic math and spelling.  The rest of their day they are free to engage in any nourishing activity they choose.  Clara reads most of the day and is the new in house librarian.  Maryanna is most likely to be lost in the land of creative process, drawing, drawing and drawing.  Both girls are excited to pick up pen pals and would love more if there is anyone who still enjoys the task of old fashion letters in the mail.  They along with their younger siblings each got their very own garden box and are learning through experience.  Clara has declared to never again plant her tomatoes so close and Maryanna has determined that it is best to thin carrots.  From last year's experience she claims carrots are sweeter after a frost so is holding back from harvesting many now. 

George and Henry's garden were also very productive.  It is funny how proud they are at meal times when we are eating their vegetables.  George was hysterical when a giant storm "chopped the heads off" of his eggplants .  He was convinced he could tape them back on but he learned that that does not work.  Henry watched his radishes and lettuce go to seed and a fungus wipe out his zucchini.  Clara's tomatoes have grown into his box so they have decided to make it a cooperative effort.  

Charlie planted mainly beets and kale.  He is a funny little guy and honestly very frustrating at times.  We have picked up the time marker B.C.  (before Charlie).  When the kids ask me why we don't go on many field trips or do messy crafts anymore the answer is usually - that was in the years B.C (and that may be another big reason for my year long pause in blogging).  I did attempt a trip to the DIA just this last week and it was not fun for me or anyone else trying to restrain Charlie.  He did stop for quite a while at Rodin's "The Thinker" .  He really stopped in long thought.  After about 10 minutes he said "mommy, is he not going to come alive yet"?  He picked out a post card of "The Thinker" at the gift shop and now sleeps with it.  He also has a small pile of playmobil toys he likes to sleep with.  When I tried to clear them out of his bed he screamed that they were his body guards.  And it is hard to argue with a little one who makes you laugh really hard.

Naomi is growing into herself faster than any of my other children.  She already is selective in what clothes and shoes she wears and often refuses to wear what I pick out.  The process of getting her dressed includes opening her drawers and allowing her to pick out her clothes.  She has joined me in yoga practice since infancy and now pretty good at tuning in and fantastic at imitating breath of fire.  

Paul and I are constantly dreaming about when we are going to get away, even for just two days.  So far it has been hard to arrange.  He is finding early morning peace in the milking room with Violet our Guernsey cow and my escape is checking in with the bees.  Occasionally a child will join me with bee visits but they know no one unprotected can come running up or disturb me during that time.  I feel most peaceful in the midst of the bees and always return into the home with energized focus and inspired ideas on how to encourage cooperation and efficiency.......because we need it!

Honestly, this past year I met up with enough challenges to seriously ask myself whether this lifestyle was aligned with the highest good of our family.  We've made some changes and re-shifted our focus a bit.  Our big garden totally flopped this year as did the grapes and other fruit trees, the decision was made to let go of most of my beloved goat heard.  And still here we are and grateful for the experiences, continually receiving nourishment even beyond that of farm raised food.